Last year, I signed Nosey up for Cub Scouts. Little did I know I would become the committee chairman. I don’t have a lot of duties, and thought “ok, I’ll do this till they can find someone to replace me. Ha. I am still there and I still have no idea what I am doing. The people involved are some really cool people, and they seem so motivated and are spending alot of time doing this. I however, still feel like I am just hanging in there.
We had a meeting last night with all of us “Leaders”. While everyone else is saying, “OOhh we can do this, and we can do that” and such, I am still so shy, that I just watch them as they put together plans. I hate being shy, so shy that I feel my throat tighten anytime someone looks at me. I mean, come on, I’m now 41. I should be able to do this, right? I should be able to speak up and say ” hey, I have an idea”. So I push myself to do this. Ok, no more said. I just wish that I wasn’t such a scaredy cat. Something else I need to work on. Ugh.
