When Mom isn’t Happy…..

Of course, when Mom isn’t happy, no one is.  But in this case, when Dad isn’t happy, no one is.  Bud is the one this time, not me.  For some reason, when this man isn’t himself, it screws me all up.  I don’t know why.  For the last week he has had a sinus infection coming on.  He knew it was about to happen, but let it get to the painful part before he states, “I need a doctors appointment.”   Had I known it was happening, I could have already been prepared mentally for the way I was going to feel.  Selfish huh?  Well, it’s just that way.  When he isn’t right, I’m not right and I have to be right.  I have others depending on me right.  I can’t function properly if someone else is out of sorts.  So I worry, and feel bad for him, and feel bad for the kids.   It feels like the whole world is going to fall apart.  I know that after taking medication within a few days he will be better.  But until then, I will ride this thing out with him.