Hello. It’s me again. I know I took a break. Sorry about that. I’ve been kinda busy with Doctors and all. Plus Thanksgiving. Bud was home for the week and I spent the majority of the time with him. We don’t get to do that very often.
The title of this post is about something I am coming to love. If you remember, or know me, you know that last year I signed Nosey up for Cub Scouts. I did this thinking that he would have something to do that would be fun and that he could do. Something that wouldn’t be too hard, but give him the challenges he needed. And help with his self esteem. This was going to be a new charter, and since it was in the beginning stages, we had to start from scratch. I mean starting with assigning leaders and such. I somehow got assigned the position of Committee Chairman. At the time I was told that all I would have to do was to sign all the papers and just basically sit and listen. Now I know that isn’t all that it involves.
Oh boy. I had no idea what I was doing. But that was ok, none of us knew what we were doing. I mean the rest of the leaders. Last year we basically just fumbled through the whole thing. There were camping trips not approved, wrong badges given out. No training what so ever. So a few of the leaders went to some of the meetings and learned more of what we needed to do. This year seems to be coming along a little better. The ones that attended the meetings or training came back with all kinds of info and things are getting to be more involved.
I however, haven’t lived up to my end of my job. Looking up my position and doing some reading, I have a lot more detailed info on what I am supposed to do. Boy oh Boy. If you know me, then you know I am one of the shyest people there is. I don’t do well in charge. I don’t do well when having to speak to groups of people. I don’t do well when speaking to someone I don’t really know. So what in the world am I doing in the CC position?? I have no idea what I am doing. And I freeze up when people look at me. But I think I can handle this. I just have to work through the anxiety. I am kinda looking forward to this. Shhh don’t tell anyone. But it might be fun. So, while I am trying to work myself up to go to some training meetings, I will be pushing myself to breathe and to think off Nosey. He means more to me than making a fool of myself. And this is for him. Right??
