Tears on the First Day of School … Really???

Really??  After 7 years you’d think it wouldn’t happen.  My right hand guys, my compadre’s, pain in the asses, my two pygmies.  They have been beside me all summer.  After all we have been through this summer, you wouldn’t think it.  We three have been through a lot, and I mean a lot.  I figured it would have been them.   But guess whose dam broke.  No, not theirs  Mine!  Yes, me.  I let that dam break wide open.  After all the good luck sugars and hugs, (not Danny of course, just a peck on the cheek for him, 7th grader you know), I let it out.  Not even a question of me walking them to class this year. I breathed a sigh of relief, thinking about all the things I need to do now as I drive out of the parking lot.  Didn’t even get past the school before I could feel the tears coming from my eyes.  I boo hoo’d all the way home!  (all of the 7 minutes it takes to get home).    

First Day of School 2010

 

I realize they have been attached to my hip most of the time.  I love having my kids with me most of the time.  Sure I get tired of the fighting and bickering, but what would I do without them??  I need them just as much as they need me.  As I type these words I realize I need this time, I have so much to do that takes concentration that I need this break.  But my heart is breaking, knowing I can’t just go hug them when I get ready to.  Or sugar their heads when I pass them on my way to the laundry room.  But I think after I get through with this post, I’ll be ok and will get busy, doing the things that will make a difference, things that have to be done.  Lots to do, where do I start?  I feel so lonely now.  I want them back home.  Here come more tears.  Dang tears!

Crap, Sorry for the pause

 

    Ok, I know, I know.  I am still alive.  Kinda.  Been having alot of pains.  Meds just zing me out.  Still trying to get things together in my head.  Had lots to do.  Baseball is one of the things.  I am loving it.  I so enjoy watching these kids try so hard.  Nosey is really enjoying it, but isn’t very good.  Heck, none of them are.  They haven’t won a game yet.  But I keep the faith.  I just know they will.  So since I haven’t been here for a while and don’t really feel like writing much these days.   I have added some other photos of the game on flickr.  I’ll try to keep up with writing this summer, I can’t wait till the kids get out of school.  Later

Just Because

Pete

Pete in a tree trying to catch a mocking bird.  He was unsuccessful. 

Well, when you live in the country as we do, you have many cats and dogs that come up.  Some are dropped off and some come from the woods or where ever.  Over the years we have had many cats just “show up”.  Somehow we get attached to these animals and so far we have been lucky, they have all been male.  But what happens is they come up as kittens and then we get attached and then they leave.  There has been, Bob who was here when we moved in 5 years ago, who came and went about three times.  Then there was Harry, who came and went.  Then White Sox,Little Kitty, then Pete.  They always stay around about 5-6 months, I guess when they get the “hunting” down.  We find small mice, snakes and other small things left on the porch for us to find in the mornings.  I guess they are thinking, “look what we caught for you.”  Then, they just dissapear, the cats I mean.  Harry stayed around the longest.  But this time, we had a little screaming yellow cat one night last fall come up.  Of course he was a pest, always in my face, but like the others, he has taken flight.  All of the others of course we would have them vaccinated, and wormed and spend money on them.  But we knew what would happen with Pete, so we didn’t this time.  And of course over the weekend, Friday morning he didn’t show up.  Still hasn’t been around, so I guess it was his turn.  They all came back at least once or twice and then never to be seen again.  I just wonder if Pete will show back up.  I guess we’ll see.

My First Purple Iris

Hello, I’m back.  Been kinda busy lately so I haven’t posted much.  But I had to do this post.  A couple of years ago,  one of my aunts gave me a bunch of iris bulbs.  Alot of them actually.  I planted them in spots all around the front yard.  This is the first year any of them have bloomed.  I was so excited that I actually had any of them bloom at all.  A long time ago I used to have a green thumb.  But somewhere along the line, I lost it.  With the lose of my dad, my divorce and other things that happened, I just quit gardening.  I have tried to get back to it in the last couple of years, but haven’t gotten even close.   My heart just hasn’t been into it.  I tried, but not with the passion I had before.  But, this year, I’ve had some of the irises bloom.  Mostly the white ones.  But the other day I noticed that one of them was going to be a deep purple.  And when it bloomed yesterday, I just had to take a shot of it.  I am so proud of it, I had to share it with you guys.  I am going to try to get back the old passion.  I hope, I can do it again.  I miss having the feeling of beauty in my heart.  A little bit at a time.

 

I would like to give credit to my Aunt Barbara, she is the one who gave me the bulbs.  Aunt Barbara, Thank you, they are now coming up and are beautiful. 

I Love….

 

I Love Bad Photos.

I took a few photos like this, but none of them came out like I wanted.  As per the SPF post, I have been having trouble with batteries.   No, I still haven’t bought any more yet.  So I took these photos with batteries where the camera kept shutting off.  Anyway, in this one I got Nosey’s shoe.  Argghh.  But I posted it anyway.  Oh well.

Tuesday

I was supposed to have something to do today.  Last Monday was Buds Birthday.  The kids and I bought him a belt.  I know, very romantic right?  Well, he has to be the worst person to buy for.  He wants nothing, and I mean literally.  I couldn’t come up with anything for him.  He has everything he needs and the things he wants, we can’t afford.  So we always just get him a little something and then when he gets ready, he buys what he really wants. 

Anyway, we bought him a belt.  He really needed one.   So the kids and I spent a few dollars, by that I mean, more than we should have and got him a really nice belt.  And he actually liked it.  So that was a great idea.  But it was too big.  So the next day we took it back to get a smaller size.  Didn’t have one in the size he needed.  Arggghh.  But the lady said they would have one in on Tuesday.  Again Arggghh.

So all week I had been planning on going back to a town, 25 miles away, to pick it up.  I was about ready to walk out the door this morning when something told me to call the store to see if they would have it in first.  Good thing I did that, because it wouldn’t be there until after 2 pm today.  Wheew, would have been upset had I drove all that way and spent gas we don’t have, just to come home without it, and have to go back later. 

So anyway, I had some time this morning to do my chores, and takes some photos.  On this beautiful Tuesday. 

Back To the Real World

Yep, I am back to the real world.  Have been quite busy since Friday.  Spring break for the kiddo’s was last week.  Yesterday was a bad weather day so they didn’t go back to school like the rest of the towns around here.  But today, Yea, they went back.  So, I am back to myself here.  I am having a hard time getting going on my chores.  All I seem to want to do is ….. nothing.  But I am slowing getting things going. 

As you know Easter was Sunday.  Along with Easter, comes egg hunts, Church services, Easter Clothes, ironing.  Filling eggs for the hunt”s”.  Now the Question.  What in the world do you do with all the plastic eggs that are left over from these “hunts”?? Hmm?  Well, I am not quite sure myself.  I thought about giving them back to the Churches for next year.  But they didn’t want them.  So I guess, I put them in a bag and add them to the already crowded closets.  The photo, is of only half of them.  Eggs along with all the candy that comes in them is over flowing and this year seems like more so.  Two big bags of candy looks like cavity season to me.  Oh well, it only comes once a year.  At least they got the message of what Easter is really about, but I still think the candy and eggs were the most focused on. 

Stuff Portrait Friday

This comes from a blog I have been a “Lurker” on for a while.  She doesn’t know, but I  secretly sneak in to peek at what she and her family are up to.  I love her photos, man are they cool.  So anyway, I have always liked the SPF.  Now that she is back with them, I just want to say “Hi Kristine!”     <<<< 

So here is my favorite photo for now.  I know it is kinda corney, but I like it.  I don’t think she said anyone else had to like it.  

Ya gotta play….did ya?

I Love….

My Boy