I’ve Had It!

Yeah, so it’s been a while since I’ve been here.   As always I get caught up in life and forget I have a sounding board.  Now I’m thinking where the heck have I been for so long.  Right here. Handling life. Doing what it takes to get through each and every day.  I’m not the catch all for my kids anymore. Oh sure, I really am but they don’t have to act helpless.  They can clean their own rooms!  Why do I have to it and why should I have to ask them repeatedly to do it?? Danny the 13 year old has gotten a mouth that won’t stop and Katie the almost less than two weeks, 12 year old, won’t acknowledge the fact that I have even been talking to her.  What happened in the last few years that made my sweetie babies to start acting like helpless creatures that can’t hear or see me?  Well that all changed tonight.  Ha!  Right now, each one is cleaning their room and bathroom.  If its not up to inspection.  I drop the hammer.  Ah.  That felt good.  Just to type the words let me free my anger!  Now I’m much better.

On Her First Double Digit Day

Tomorrow is my Katie’s Birthday.  She calls it her First Double Digit Day, as she will be turning 10.  This day is pretty special in that she will now join the ranks of those of us that have a 2 digit age.  I never thought of this before until she informed me of this last night.   

  

I won’t get to spend her 10th birthday with her as she will be going to her grandparents to spend her special day with them for their family reunion.  She was kind of sad last night when she realized that I wouldn’t be there on her 10th.  I love that little girl with all my heart.  But I have told her that since she doesn’t get to spend as much time with her grandparents as she used to, that they should get to have this special day with her.  They should at least have one of her most special days to remember as I would have many.    

They are the most wonderful grandparents a child could ask for.  I think they are truly special people and am grateful she belongs to them.  These people have been there for her from day one.  I can always count on them.    

I will call her tomorrow to wish her happy birthday and it breaks my heart not be with her on her Double Digit Day, but I will have so many more milestones to share with her.   

  

Dear Kathryn, you are my Sweetie Pea, my twin, my soul.  I am so glad you came to me and yes I asked God for you especially.  When He asked me which child I wanted, I chose you.  You, above all the rest.  Even though you make me pull you off the ceiling, pull my hair out, and chase you all around,  I am grateful that I have you.  Katie, you keep me grounded, keep me guessing, keep me focused.  You give me reason to live, you have made me a better person, a person I can be proud of being.   

  

There isn’t a person who has met you that you haven’t touched in some way.  I am always told from everyone, how smart and funny you are.  They tell me you made their day when they were having a bad day.  Child, one day you will understand just what a special person you are.  I love everyday when I can kiss the top of your head and hold you.  I know there will come a day when you won’t like me, and you will go your own way.  I also know that you will come back to me when you are older.  Just know that I will always be here for you.  Even when you think I am uncool and mean I will still love you and think you are the “bee’s knee’s”.  When you think I am the “meanest mom ever”, and lash out because you are a teenager and I am “ruining your life”, I will love you still.  

My Katie Girl

 

I am going to miss spending time with you on your Double Digit Day.  But I know I will have many many more days with you.  You are my Sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skys are gray.  I hope you have a wonderful Double Digit Day tomorrow.  I am willing to share you, for you see, when you have something that you love so much, you want to share with others.  Happy 10th Birthday, My Sweetie Pea.  I love You.  Mom

I Want to Play Outside

Yea, doesn’t that sound like fun?  Playing outside.  Yea Baby.  The weather is gorgeous today and should be for the next couple of days.  These are days I love, love, working in the yard.  Cleaning out the storage bldg or whatever.  Normally, I would get all chores done, inside work done, phone calls made and go outside.  Not today nor tomorrow will I be playing outside.  Blahhh. 

I have to work on taxes.  Again, Blahhhh.  I know ok, should have done them earlier and had it over with.  However, when you have to pay your hard earned Benjamins to dear ole Uncle Sammy, then you want to hang on to it as long as you can.  It just makes for a nicer round number in the back pocket.  I know that these coins could make us a little happier around the ole house.  I can think of a few things needed, or just wanted.  Like a dishwasher….(hint, hint)…. no he isn’t taking the hint.  But you get my point.  So anyway, those of you that are enjoying the day….more power to you.  Just think about me a little, while you are digging in the dirt, or holding a water hose, or running or whatever it is you do.  Because I won’t get to go play outside for at least 2 more days.  Blahhhhh!

Failure to Respond in a Timely Manner

This can get you in lots of trouble.  Failing to respond, in a timely manner.  As a mom, you have to be on top of things.   When you have kids, sometimes your response time is crucial.  Say for instance, you are busy, working on your next blog post or folding clothes, or perhaps washing dishes, (watching The Big Bang Theory from your DVR feature) and you hear a loud ”thunk” and lots of muffled thunks, from down the hall accompanied by laughter and “ssshhh-es”. (I know there is no such word as sssshhh-es, but thought it appropriate for this post), so, forgive me.   However, thunk is actually a word.  Google gave up several different meanings.  Who knew? 

Instead of getting up right then to check out the “thunk”, laughter and sssshhh-es, you continue to fold or rinse, until a commercial comes on.  You then pause the show and very quietly sneak down to the kids room.  You stand in the hallway, watching through the mirror in the hallway so you can observe without being seen, stealth like, you know.  We mothers have the gift of stealth when the occasion arises.  

What do your eyes see?   These children who have been told, more times than you have seen daylight, not to throw ANYTHING in the house, have taken pillows and belts and have strapped them to their stomachs and are throwing a tennis ball at each other.   A wet dirty tennis ball, that was left outside in the rain and mud.  This was the source of the thunk.  Each time the ball hit the wall, ceiling or timeless piece of antique furniture, (yea right), it left a round muddy print.

You curse under your breath, ”Son of a (insert not so nice word)”.  “What the (insert a different not so nice word)”.   “What do you think you are doing??”  They hear you, they freeze, Noisy, with ball in hand, hand raised, turns green and points at Nosey.  “It was his idea”!   Nosey then proceeds to plead his case.  “Yeah, but you threw it first”!   The whole time, this is going on, you hold your breath because you know you can’t laugh.   Show no weakness.   Ah, but if you had only responded faster, there might not be so many spots,  or you could have prevented it all, by confiscating the ball before it made it to the bedroom.  Hind sight, yea, ok, I know already.

I wish I’d have thought to get the camera.  Two small children with pillows strapped to their mid-sections with belts.  Both green, and pointing at each other.   Would like to see them explain that photo to their kids.

Cut to later scene – two small children cleaning round marks off bedroom walls and furniture.  I would make them clean the ceiling if they could reach that high.  

   Note:  This is a post from awhile back.  It is from my stack of Posts to run in case I don’t have time right now,  I don’t have anything else to write about.  It has been edited so as to seem current. 

Snow in East Texas

Feb 16 04

Ok, here in East Texas, it just doesn’t snow, except for every 4-5 years.  I don’t mean a few little flurries, we have that from time to time.  I’m saying we never get  a good snowfall, where it completely covers everything.  That only seems to happen every 4-5 years, or longer.  We did however get a good snowfall in 2004 on Feb 16th.  

Today, we woke up to a few small flurries, and are supposed to receive 1-3 inches of real snow this afternoon.  Now whether or not we actually do, remains to be seen.  I hope so, for Nosey and Noisey’s sake, and all other children as well.  Ok, me too.  I would love to catch some photos of snow for this year.  I just don’t like the cold and wet, but tolerate it for the kids sake. 

Halloween and Rain??

Oh, come on already. Were swimming here. It’s the end of October, almost Halloween. I can just see the kiddos parents paddling around in little boats and pulling up to the doors of people to Trick or Treat. The rain is relentless. So many homes under water, so many rivers running over. I really feel for those people in our surrounding counties. Alot have had to leave their homes.
Nosey has delcared that he is too big to trick or treat, no problem there, Noisy however may get her chance if it dries out a bit between now and Saturday. We’ll see what happens. Anyway, Happy Wet Halloween!!!! mmwaaaa

Long Time No….

Ok, I know, I didn’t keep good on my promise to myself to get back into writing.  I just haven’t been in the mood to.  Not that I haven’t had much to write about, just didn’t feel like writing.  But I guess that since I am not in too much of a good mood today, I guess I’ll just do this because. 

It is Sunday, Noisy is playing video games, Nosey is also in a different room.  Bud is napping after watching the Texas Rangers play.  They won this afternoon, and are doing really well this year.  Baseball has become number one priority with us again this year.  I guess that is all for now. 

I will try to write more later.

What Have I Been Doing?

That is a good question, and I don’t have an answer.  I’ve been doing lots of things and doing lots of nothing.   I did go to work for a little while back in September of last year, had several bouts with depression, face pain went away around Christmas, kids have been doing good, Noisy has taken to reading like a book worm, Nosey has decided he wants to be in the military and is all about anything to do with planes.   Bud is Bud.  I guess I have just been hibernating since the spring of last year.  I miss writing and I guess I’ll try a little harder to get back to it.  For now, I have more work to do so off I go. 

Pause…….. Right

It has been a long pause.  Almost a year now.  I’d almost forgotten about this place.  I didn’t realize that nothing has been written for 10 or so months.  Just started thinking earlier today it was time to get back to it.  So here I am and will write more later……

I Love this Woman

Not doing things I am supposed to be doing today, because, I just don’t want to.   It’s gray outside and a little too cold to do anything there.  All my chores are done for the day.  According to me.  I have been watching a couple of videos on YouTube.  I have found this lady who has grabbed my heart.  Such a sweetie.  If you have some time, you might check out her blog or videos.  Her name is MillieGarfield.  She is just too cool.  Thought I’d just share her with you.